Everyone might have dreamed like this,” A beautiful house with a loving wife and children In a beautiful valley, full of love and joy, a smooth wind careering fragrance of lily Butterflies flying all around, all the corners of that world showing unconditional love”... We can say a Wow now…!!!
Yes I had that dream my “great family dream”. After working with my great dream I understood not only I am, who is deciding the things, there are lot of things more than unconditional love. People will call it luck factor or destiny or something else …!!! Because of that above factors my unconditional love failed in the streets. Some one fucked with my dreams. (Sorry for that F word) All the things I believed became mystery, still destiny moves like a mysterious girl and am following her for the time being .I lost my great family dream beneath her foots but I never give up I have some more to do . Not exactly big as” my family dream “but I am working on it …. Here you are on my small dream … welcome to my life... welcome to my story of a journey called LIFE

Monday, December 6, 2010


She appeared in the court after 6 months, that was counseling for us .family court was crowded as always. It seems to be a share brocking house where we can buy or cell relationships; everyone had a deadly rhythm on their movements.
I reached early as usual
I had missed the first appearance because I had an interview in Info Park. (On that time I were not able to hear any lies by my wife, that was the main reason for ignoring the first appearance)
Latter, I heard the drama from my advocate
She lied about our relation ship and she pretend to be innocent and merely said I am a cheater. She was in a hurry to escape from our unconditional love, and she looked like a fire force women in a khaki dress who is trying to rescue her father from the big trouble called operation Aman. 'She became a great daughter to a great dad rather than being a great lover and great wife'. And on the very first day of appearance judge decided we both need to attend the most famous circus of family court, “the counseling”,
The main seekers of counseling were her parents but the judge made the rule follow. Judge postponed the case to another date and said Sonali and Aman need to attend counseling.
I was gone down hearing this all drama from my advocate
'Do you think she really loves you …?' My Adv asked Me.?
Yep…! I know still she loves me … she can’t go …she will be with me only …my brain was searching to pick the proper answer.
'Is that a question to ask…? Obviously, she loves me.' I answered with a stammered voice..!!!
Ok just go through bible you will get the proper dialogue for your hope …!!

" Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called.

And Adv called the next client, As I left the room
She hadn’t appeared for the next 2 counselings.
I went to the court, and came back with the same hope
’may be next time’…!
finally that day came
it was the counseling for us. As per the world bullshit law, 'Ladies first' rule followed there...!!!
I was eagerly waiting outside of that counseling room,
after a long time am going to hear Sonali's voice, and am going to see her very near ..!!
Very much excited like a school boy who is waiting to punish by principal behalf of his friends faults.
But my intellectual brain remind me that there is no way for a will..She will move from you... and she will say something bullshit inside the cabin..Be prepared for the worst..
I heard the old accountancy lecture as a mosquito’s buzz
“Conservatism - anticipating loss more than profit”
after 15 minutes they called me inside.
She were beautiful as always my Testosterone worked like something
but suddenly all the hormones commit suicide inside my cell.
Counselor brakes the silence of love
'see Aman, Sonali is saying that she need to go with her parents...!!'
As you lied about ‘Surya’.

"What the fuck you are saying...? I lied??? OMG "
that was the answer in my mind
but I controlled!
I saw my love , dancing & flying in front of me like a joker..." The life itself branded & reserved me as a schlemief "..I thought.She decieved the "Love" we grown up together,she adulterated the dreams we lived for, she poisoned our memorale past...she...she....she left, making me an abandoned lonely idiot with the "couches of sorrows" i am still living with....,only to protect & fullfill her selfish, conservative Parent's wicked aspirations.
'What you are saying Sona..? What cheating I did..? will you pleas,.....!!!
Really, I didn’t get you …?'
I asked and breathed very eagerly .
'I don’t have any kind of belief in you … I can’t trust you …
I want to go with my parents …you cheated me !!!'
She repeated the same ..!.
Her voice had the same boldness as she said in front of the 'sub inspector' after our marriage, but it was slightly different, that was I want to go with my husband
'As you are saying I cheated you then the thing which you have done to me ...what was it ..eternal love ..? or unconditional love ..???' i asked her
I looked her again …I need to confirm that is this the same girl who called me LLF (life long friend), who loved me more than anything, who knows me more than I know about myself, who became my wife ignoring the pressure by her parents…who lived with me, and who dreamed the future in all my breaths …!!!
Oh it’s really unbelievable …!!!
No, you cant forget the love we had ,not only I am but also you …you are also going to suffer with out me …please don’t do this . .. Thoughts went randomly inside the brain may be some useless thoughts …!!!
I tried to look at her eyes
she avoid the eye contact
' why you came again after the brake up ? ' I asked her
I felt the earth is braking in to pieces …am going away from her
' They hadn’t kidnapped you?
They hadn’t beaten me? and You don’t know anything about my past …and especially about Surya, is it? '

All questions came frequently from my unconscious ness!
She avoid all the questions, she treated me like a stranger
I was reading her mind ! No Sona I know you. I know why you are acting like this!and i sighed
And she left me, crushing out that little flower inside me in her palms...& flew away,to the present...here i am still constrained to stay imprisoned with the past.
(to be continnued)

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Grassy Sunny Day

I sat on the concrete block near to the sea shore.A hot wind wafting salty air passed over me that made my skin sticky and wet,I was listening to the  melody of  waves breaking in to the sea shore .KannyKumari had woke up already It was half past 9, Bright sun rays travelled a long distance and difracted in to yellow and all the Kannykumari looked yellowish and beautiful on that sunny day.Bright yellow rays of Sun blessed the city and erased the ugliness of  the city from her face .Road side ventures started their works by shouting their product's name in a specific ' South Indian English ' , some music shops played devotional songs of  "goddess KannyaKumari" . Even though  it was half past nine some played 'M.S Subhalakshmi's suprabhatham' , people from different places in different colors scattered all around and they travelled from one shops to another and that process repeated with time progresses .Streets pulled in to a state of rush and completely transformed in to a battle field .
As we had finished the study part yesterday we were on our incredible  enjoyment part.All of my friends were engaged on flirting they had a piece of paper written it by some Hindi film heroes names like Karan,Rahul, Arjun etc and their own land line number .They distributed this paper piece to strangers,especially to good looking girls .I found girls boring and nothing amusing so I thought being alone with roaring waves till they finish their distribution works will be better for me .I was sure as the money was with me then they will come to me after their flirt, Rama Moorthy had given me 1000 Rs for our expenses .

( On morning 5.30 after the beautiful sunrise Rama Moorthy Sir called every one in to the balcony And said, 
Guys, we have time till the evening , I know you guys are not anymore kids, and he passed a teasing smile to Sumith as he was the smallest one of our batch 
And continued, you have the freedom and grab it.
I will accompany the girls batch and if any of you need to join My team you can join, and vice-versa !!! and he looked at girls with a croocked face  !!! (un)fortunatley girls stood with Morthy only, and 5 of our boys joind Moorthies team.  The remaining 13, under Jackson's leadership said a Big ' gud bey sirrrr ' to Moorthy and 'see yaaaa girls' to girls.That remind me the movie  charlei's angels
Aman come here moorthy called me personally,
And hand over me 1000 rupees and said
you should cut the coat according to your cloth , and take care of boys. 
and he left the balcony )

Suddenly Jackson came to me,
Hi dude, I got this...!! He said, by pointing to a copy book
I took some effert to move my eyelid towards him i saw rounding stars around Jackson’s head he seemd like some hindu sadhu in his orange out fit.
he had changed his shirt  to an orange 'ohm'  printed kurta. 
"Swaami jackson thiruvadikal,you should have finished your distribution works?  isn't it? "  i asked and i laughed 
" Why the fuck you are laughing…? " Jacks asked me .
Aman, Don’t pretend to be swami Vivekananda …!!! He warned me..!
ohh am not the one , but you .....you looks like swaami ... 'swaami jackson thiruvadikal'  I laughed at him again
" Tell me Jacks what's the matter ? " I pretend to be more serious and asked  
And he showed me what he got!
It was a copy book, he steals it from some school girls; the main part of attraction of the book was, that had almost all the phone numbers and addresses of a Girl’s Higher Secondary School. (I never thought this small copy book will ruin my entire life)
"Wow …you little kid you made it …Go and fuck the copy book…!!" I said with angry.
In-between rest of our boys had joined us
All of them looked happy, their mission has been accomplished.
" Yep let’s go to our room and enjoy this moment." Shine said..!
I nodded and followed them.


After we reached our room i said " I have an idea …!!!" 
and i showed some real kannaykumari stuff which I bought from a local fisherman.
" No Aman , that 'take a puff and wait for the second one to release' was a bloody one I don’t want to Explore more " Sumith said with a  stammering voice .
He had done some grass experiments with me once in our hostel room, he  had lost his mind on that day . He always want  to smoke the grass, but he had that fear every time.
" No dear it’s a great one...I swear .As we are on our final days, who knows were we all gonna reach ,as my mamma always said life is like a box of chocolate no body knows ...." Jackson interfered me and finished the rest . " what we gonna get..!!! "  He winked at me with a smile.
"so lets enjoy the moment " shine joined then 
We made an emotional blackmailing over our friends  with that 'Forest Gump' dialogue,it was all about enjoying the day, some times friends do blackmailing for making the moment memorable.
somebody get me a bed sheet ! I said eagerly...!!!
Suddenly Shine run to his luggage and took the bed sheet from his bag, it was a woolen bed sheet, Love of his mother shined on Shine’s bed sheet
" Oh mamma we are really sorry we are going to use this for a great idea, you won’t like it " Ramjith roared with this statement
I made a tent with the bed sheet ,and said  " OK everyone get inside...!!!"
All nodded and followed my instructions
We the top “10”grassers were under that bed sheet, which one was big enough to suck all of us. 
Every one looked at me …with a 'what the hell is going on' look  …!!!
the tiger prints on the bed sheet gave a Neanderthal cave experience to us  .
I arranged them as we are attending one round table conference and I light up the Joint and an ordinary cigarette, I took a deep puff of joint and give it to shine. After one puff , he handover the joint to Ramjith and  joint rolled from one person to another in clock ways and anti-clock ways directions.
Thick smoke of grass minimized  the space between us, each and every single nucleus in our cells transformed in to a pensive mood and we horipilated with joy.
" Don’t allow the Smoke to go out, we will enjoy it in all our breaths." I said 
It remembered me Piyush Pandey’s the great horse ad  “passive smoking kills”
I changed the tagline for the time being “passive smoking thrills” …!!!
Pandeyji passive smoking is really enjoyable I swear. Every moment under that bed sheet was thrilling;
as the after effect was very quick
After the first round
1, Sumith started crying …!! He really wants to see his mamma. 
2, Ramjith started singing, may be the worst song i ever experienced in my life 
3, the silent Ranish became a philosopher
" Oh my dear god, you are great you made heaven, you made earth, you made man, you made women, and you made GRASS all those creations except Grass were worst …! thanks from my side For putting the seed of grass on earth" 
and he got loud applause for that philosophical discovery
" No... Man, thanks from our side " sumith added his part with a crying voice
And we nodded..!!!
" It was great under that bed sheet "
Ashaan Syam sighed and said; 
"at past we wasted lots and loads of grass
Oh I feel like am a loser… any way thanks Aman … thanks for this great UBS (under the bed sheet) idea..!" 

to be continued... 

As much as you want/can…!!!

"You fuckers switch off the TV Mohammed roared with anger..!!!"
He was really angry as we played a funny game with Mohammed
After the UBS we went out to see KanyaKumari with a “grassy eye” and we purchased some KanyaKumari stuffs.
Shine and Jackson went to buy Rum for the night party
Mohammed was very irritated with the sunny day as he doesn’t took bath at the morning, and he begged us to go to the room first, 
but we ignored him, as we also had an idea to take bath but, here some one like Mohammed ‘ 6 feet 92 inches chest ‘one real fat "Glutton" in our class is begging us for the same so we changed the plan.
We said to MANTHU (that was his nick name it means a real fat man) "we are not coming to the room we are hungry "
So food is the first priority, Anush said loudly…!!! " everyone nodded and went to the Restaurant for having lunch
Mohamed got angry and he went to the room.
I shocked with this drama
" I can’t believe this; he left food for bath … ho..!!! Unbelievable… I witnessed a history man, really ... shit happens sometimes " and i laughed 
Manthu ignored the food for bath..! Everyone started laughing with this drama.
That was an unbelievable thing for us may be for the entire college or may be for the world.
As he was a very famous Glutton.He may kill and eat some one if he got hungry.That much famous was his eating. He never missed any free food. But here it happened

“Sometimes shit happens “

Almost all of our classmates 'Sanku Mankus' are there and we had South Indian vegetable meals
After our lunch Rama Moorthi sir told us " we have enough money with us for having deserts so let’s have ‘as much as you want’ " and he left the hotel with sanku manku ladies.
The poor Rama Moorthi sir never thought 'as much as you want ' means a fucking number...!!!
We ate 'as much as we can' we finished all the ice creams of that restaurants
The owner called the suppliers for another quick delivery
I heard the shop keeper’s prayer “Andavaa today seems to be a great day give me this kind of customers as much as you can”
We finished that delivery too and at last we said our self… " yep its enough…!
After all Stomach is ours!"
And we left the restaurant
We imagined Moorthi sir’s teased face as we ten people ate 238 ice creams and we laughed.
A sweet replay to Moorthi’s as much as you want!
I damn sure he never used that “as much as you want” for rest of his life
As The polling was 1000%
Jackson leads by 17, then syamjith and me with 14, Sumith, Shine, Ramjith, and Anush etc in order, the minimum number by one was 12

Sunday, November 28, 2010

The knock drill

We bought dry chapattis and daal fry for Mohammed.
We met Mohammed at hotel steps. He looked fresh and handsome
"Where you going manthu ? "I asked
"To the restaurant " he answered
"We bought chapattis for you, no need to go there they closed the restaurant for 2 hours brake " I said and hand over the packet.
He thanked me and hugged me "no Mohammed, no room for a drama here
Go and eat …!!!"
At the room we disclose the story of “as much as you want “.and manthu came to know that he missed the opportunity.
He looked at the dry chapatti and to me !!!
" Where is my ice cream he asked "?
"May be with Moorthi sir he took all the balance packets with him I forget to ask,You only go and ask him"  Ranish said and he wink at me.
"Yaa…the packet is with him " I supported as I understood the fun
Manthu were blind to have Ice creams he never understood the drama as everyone acted innocent to manthu,
He ran to Moorthi sir’s room.
Our room became a laughing zone after he left …!!!
" Ho god you made a 98 kg real metal man and you were really sick to put something inside his brain …you only put a note on his brain 'die for the food'…!!! "
I sighed and sat on the floor as I was tired because of laughing
Room quaked with our laughing

He knocked at Rama Moorthi’s door
Moorthi opened the door as some one interrupted his siesta…!!!
"Yes Mohammed what do you want…?" Moorthy asked
"Sir I…" he stammered
"Yes you…" he intervene manthu’s replay
"I need my ice cream he said bravely"
"Ice cream …!!!"
Moorthi became angry as he heard his wife’s name on a vacation
He looked like he had an Ice cream monster on his dream
"You guys are smart don’t try to be over smart," Moorthi said with angry!!!
He used the ‘f ‘word to manthu and he smash the door to manthu’s face
Manthu didn’t understand anything
"What the fuck he is? Is he nuts?"
"The bloody Moorthi …fuck off… I came for my ice cream
What the hell is this?" And he came back to the room
Everyone heard the story and controlled our laughter
"What the fuck …is that the real way to talk to a student …???" I put some oil on the fire
"May be because of interruption of his sleep …!!!" And I sighed
"I think the packet is with girls… I saw a packet in Lisa’s hand
Shall we enquire about this??? " Shine asked Mohammad
"No I don’t want ice cream, forget it …" Mohammed said with half minded
"No man, just go and search their room too
I will accompany you…"Sumith said and winked to us
The second knock drill is going to happen
"My god you are mistaken please put something more than that paper piece in his brain"
I prayed to god
And we all moved to girl’s side to witnessing the drama

Mohammed knocked on Lisa’s door
"Yes Moh’d what’s the matter …???" Lisa asked
" Lisa, do you have my ice cream?
Please give me my ice cream? I know it’s with you !"
He asked all the questions in a single breath!
"Are you nuts? I don’t have your ice cream!!!
Go and ask Moorthi sir"
And she closed the door
We laughed around him
Then only that fool understood it was a dram by us
He became angry and turned to me and Jackson,
I ran with my life Jackson jumped from the step
Sumith, Shine and Ranish ran to Lisa’s room and closed the door
He knocked at the door again and again with anger .

Moorthi came out side as he heard the uproar
And he saw manthu knocking at girl’s room
He called him
What’s the matter? What you are doing there? Moorthi asked him
"Sir ice cream …" he stammered
"Ho, you really sick!!!''
He gave him 20 rupees and said, go…
And have your ice creams “as much as you want”!!!
but Mohmammd refused that money, as he understood the trap inside morrthi's offer and he ran to our room with life
after 10 minutes
he sighed and said

"fools ate ice creams am not...!!
being cool(fresh) is good more than becoming a fool"
(to be continued...)